Marlboro Woman

Agnes smoked Marlboros. I can’t separate the ubiquitous red and white box from any memory of my mother. Her hands were never far from that flip-top pack. Like shrimp between two chopsticks, a cigarette dangling casually between the joints of two fingers is a practiced dexterity, one she learned long before I was born.

The broad flatback of her hands extending from wide wrists guided her muscled fingers. They looked like they worked hard and long. But they didn’t. Her young hands held rackets, bridles, hair brushes and probably cigarettes. Her maternal hands chopped, sliced and scrubbed until motherhood bored her.

Freckles splattered over raised veins tunnelling through the back of her hands. When the freckles blended together into “liver spots”, I was ashamed, embarassed. Later on, those liver spots scared me, until I learned prolonged beach time was the cause, not alcohol or tobacco-related diseases. 

To paint her nails, Agnes would sit in her arm chair next to the mahogany table, a cold beer on a coaster and a cigarette in a flowery ceramic ashtray. She never smudged them, never blotched her cuticles, never spilled the polish, never needed to mop up after herself.  She’d unscrew the top of Revlon’s Fire and Ice and pull out the dark-bristled brush coated in toxic red lacquer. With one hand flattened on the table, and the other one holding the grooved white plastic top, she’d drag the brush along the lip of the bottle to get the exact amount of polish. Pulling the brush from the bottom of the nail to the top in perfect form, nail after nail, she’d quietly finish the job, then blow on the tips of her fingers to dry them. She was never hurried, but finished before the cigarette was burned to the halfway mark. Lifting the cigarette to her lips without smudging her half-dried nails, she’d take a long rewarding drag.

At the mirror, she’d further glamorize her ensemble with matching lipstick. Gripping a short, thin-handled lipstick brush in her right hand, she’d cradle the unopened lipstick in her left, slide the top up with her left fingers, and let the top drop into the crook where the palm meets the thumb. Holding both parts steady, she’d flick the curved tapered bristles of the brush back and forth on the creamy substance with her right fingers. She’d outline the edges of her top and bottom lips, then brush the bare flesh inside the lip lines with vertical strokes. After blotting her freshly-colored lips with a folded Kleenex, she’d lift a lit Marlboro from the ashtray and gently mouth the filter tip.

In the 1960s Philip Morris secretly started using chemicals in Marlboros to free base the nicotine and increase its addictiveness. Smokers said the cigarettes calmed their nerves. By the 1970s Marlboros were the best-selling cigarette in the world.

My mother carried a small leather purse until the day she died. The only contents: lipsticks and Marlboros.

10 thoughts on “Marlboro Woman

  1. Annie quit smoking PallMall after 20 yrs and went to Benson & Hedges for the filter-
    so the long red nails and long cigarettes are etched in my mind- but she did her
    nails at the kitchen table with a percolater of coffee close by !!

  2. Such fantastic writing. My brother was the Marlboro Man. When I started smoking at 14, it’s no wonder my brand was Marlboro lights, the more feminine version of the cancer sticks used by my idol. It took ten years, but I kicked the habit. It’s a good thing. I met the man I would marry only a few months later and he would have never dated a smoker.

  3. My mother spoked Marlboros too. So did I when I started smoking. This brought back lots of memories. I always love your writing.

  4. More about my generation than my Mom’s…..so happy that era is over. I loved your clear account of it.

  5. Regan, you missed your calling. Reading the step-by-step description here of your mother applying nail polish and lipstick tells me you could have had a successful career as a technical writer!

  6. I loved this. You really paid attention to her. You brought her back and those times. K

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  7. Nice. Mine didnt drink to the same degree but she was 3 packs of Camels/day and gorgeous Fire and Ice nails.

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