Soul Clawing Days

Anne Lamott, a popular soul-searching memoirist, live-Zoomed a teaching on writing recently. She emphasized two major points: 1) stop not writing, and; 2) no one cares if you’re writing, especially your family and friends. Anne told us to be likable narrators, never vengeful and don’t antagonize the reader.

I risk being an “un”likable antagonistic narrator in writing about the looting and violence in my downtown Chicago neighborhood, the Gold Coast. An amalgam of landscaped mansions, row houses and mixed income highrises, the Gold Coast rose in the wake of the 1871 Great Chicago Fire. Wealthy industrialists built North Lake Shore Drive to front their new mansions. In the late 1980s, the Gold Coast was the second most affluent neighborhood in the United States, behind Manhattan’s Upper East Side.  I’m neither affluent nor near-affluent. I live in the Gold Coast to be safe.

In the early morning of May 31, I walked out the back door of my building to Oak Street with Henry the dog. Oak Street is a block-long high-fashion retail museum where the haute couture show off their latest trendsetting wardrobes in oversize clear glass windows. The Chicago uprising stemming from the George Floyd murder turned Oak Street into a comic book version of a visit from Godzilla. Within hours shattered glass lay strewn on the streets and sidewalks, dismembered mannequins lay naked on the curbs, paper and cardboard boxes lay shredded everywhere. A U-Haul truck perched on the curbside by the shattered window of Dolce & Gabbana. Scavengers foraged through smashed-in Armani’s looking for remnants of the organized looting that had just ended. The street recovered somewhat over the next few months and then bam! On August 10 Godzilla came through again and not only sacked Oak Street, but unloosed a reign of violence and looting all over Chicago’s retail corridors. 

Black Lives Matter, a radical national organization became a mainstream darling after the gruesome George Floyd murder. Yes, white people said, we finally get it! We value Black people and their right to self-determination. We want to fight for equitable systems too. We might even support reparations. We’ll try to understand what you mean by “defund the police.” We pledge to learn more about white supremacist, capitalist patriarchy. Ending criminalization of Black communities is our goal too. We’re with you.

A BLM spokesperson stood in front of the police station that held 100 arrestees from the August 10 uprising and announced that BLM considers looting “reparations”, and that downtown attacks will continue until there’s justice and equality in their neighborhoods.

Activist Michael Pfleger appeared hangdog on TV mouthing a familiar plea including words like, “decades of disinvestment and abandonment,” and begging city leaders for a strategy. 

“I’ve never seen things worse.” He said.

In 1968 I had an autographed copy of Eldridge Cleaver’s “Soul on Ice”. I have no idea what drew me to anti-racism then or what draws me to it now. But I sure do feel as defeated as Father Pfleger sounds.

And I miss walking Henry through the Oak Street fashion museum.

12 thoughts on “Soul Clawing Days

  1. Regan, I’m with you 100% – we must remember that those few people who stood outside the Police Headquarters do NOT represent the vast majority of BLM folks. Or Black folks for that matter. Or anyone, really, other than themselves. It was a sad and selfish comment. Not intended to be helpful. Hang in there.

    We have to be at or nearing the bottom. That is my constant refrain. Hold on a while longer.

    “To draw, you must close your eyes and sing” Pablo Picasso

    On Sun, Aug 16, 2020 at 6:33 PM Regan Burke Back Story Essays wrote:

    > Regan Burke posted: ” Anne Lamott, a popular soul-searching memoirist, > live-Zoomed a teaching on writing recently. She emphasized two major > points: 1) stop not writing, and; 2) no one cares if you’re writing, > especially your family and friends. Anne told us to be likable narr” >

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  2. Is that you in the red jacket + Harry in the window??
    Great piece, Regan.
    Heart-breaking to see our neighborhood trashed – twice.
    Hope it won’t discourage people from moving here.
    Caroline

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  3. Please don’t despair Regan I have admired your positive, uplifting outlook for as long as I have known you strong women such as you are are needed to carry the spirit of hope! I see positive outcomes through this stormy time we must stay cool in the face of these setbacks, “this too shall pass.”

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